Don't Judge a Recipe By Its Name

I'm in a food rut. I'm in a lot of ruts, actually....but we'll concentrate on food right now. I'm plagued with chronic boredom I think. If I do too much of something, it kind of grates on me and I just don't want to have anything to do with it for a while. Whether is be my gloriously amazing craft room, reading, healthy foods, or exercise.

Our dinners are sooooooo boring! Protein and veggie, protein and veggie, protein and just shoot me please. And this is seriously all it is. Chicken or fish, occasionally some red meat and then some sort of frozen veggie on the side that is hardly doctored up.

Lunches are no better.

I. Need. Variety. This second.

In trying to find some recipes, I'm realizing that I'm seriously judgmental when it comes to food. Specifically the names of these recipes. Some of the names just sound so funny! How can I take an entree called "Tuna Noodle Doodles" seriously. Come on now! And then there are the cases where I come across a dandy sounding recipe, skim through the ingredients and see Greek yogurt, plain yogurt, cottage cheese or any other such random healthy foods I can't stand on their own, and I immediately write this possible deliciousness off.

Oh man.

Hi my name is Sarah and I have a judgmental food prejudice.

I'm off to find some recipes....I HAVE to experiment with some of these.

Day 28: 211.5 lbs - Plagues, Formulas, and Workouts...Oh My!

So I've seriously been stuck on writing this thing for like a week and a half. Everyday I open up my draft and have to change the day....

This stupid plague flu that is going around.... Holy smokes, man. I started coughing last Sunday and then it just killed me. I was out of work for 3.5 days, stuck to the couch, surviving on soups and heaping servings of teen angst via Netflix.I haven't been to the gym in over a week, but I've managed to lose some weight still (yay!!). I started biking home from Batman's workplace again this week; and while I'm huffing like a smoker and totally dead by the time I get home, it's a step in the right direction.

I'm officially down 7.5 pounds now. I'm kind of behind where I need to be to stay on track, but I still think I've made a ton of progress. I need to lose 22 more pounds by my birthday, which is just a little over 9 weeks away....2.4 pounds a week. I need to magically find a caloric deficit of 8400 for that happen.According to the Harris Benedict Equation, to maintain my current grossness, I'll need 2440 calories a day. So between diet and exercise, I have to find a deficit of 1200 calories. I think it's totally doable. I'm thinking, consuming about 1400 calories. I burn about 200 or so on my 5 mile ride home, and I do more cardio at the gym to kill time until Batman is done so there is the rest of the deficit. I can totally do this!

I had issues last week trying to find a workout routine to follow. I was torn between the type of body I ultimately want. I know genetics plays a part, and quite frankly, I'm a little nervous about what the "fit" me will look like, since I've never actually seen her. I want so many different things for me. I want to be lean and fit and strong, but I also want that beautiful long dancer's body. I had so much anxiety over this decision when really I had already made it. I posted this on Facebook a few weeks ago:

"Hear this! Before 2013 is over this will happen:

Weigh 150 lbs
Do 3 unassisted pull ups
Do 1 full set of hanging leg lifts
Be able to punch somebody
Have confidence to stand up for myself"

So I'm just going to go for it and do what I need to do and not dwell on it. I have these goals and I need to get going. I decided to follow the Muscle and Fitness Trainer, which gave me a pretty hefty strength workout, but one that is completely doable and changes weekly. No muscle memory issues for me!

I'm going to do this.I'm going to break up with my fat!

Day 15: 214.2 lbs - Shake It Out

4.8 pounds lost forever! 25.2 pounds to go by my birthday!

I can totally do this. I just need to stay on track and pay attention to my diet....cause that is where I suck. I'll think of yummy, fatty, super carb heavy foods that sound really good and then I'll go have them...just to have them. Not because I was hungry, not because I needed their empty nutrition, but because I just got to thinking about them. And then I got to craving them so much that I could taste them....and then I just had to eat it. This happened yesterday with one of those frosted Honey Bun sugar loaded contraptions you can get at the gas station. I caved and got it....but I didn't gain anything, so I guess there is a small upside.

I can't kill myself every time I slip up. I just need to stay in control. A slip up here or there, seriously spaced out, is not going to kill me. A slip up here or there, every other day or so, will. I will be doing everything possible to keep my cravings in check, while still understanding that I am a female and sometimes, I just need to act on them or force as huge binge in like a week.

Florence + The Machine's song Shake It Out is my anthem for 2013. I'm changing! At nearly 28, I'm finally starting to figure out who I am. A seamstress, crafter, costumer, wife. This year I'll be refining. New adjectives will describe me! Confident, sexy, fit. This is the year that I will be everything I want to be.

I have every hope I can keep this momentum up. My goals are attainable. I WILL do this.